so tht time the only choice is STPM......but i still thinking if i take STPM wht course i going to study after tht????wht is my interest actually is????so i realize since i was young i really love to cook and try out something new....so i felt tht it would be better if i study some field which related food industry and i start searching for college from websites and also newspaper....finally i found the only affordable and suitable course and college 4 me is Tarcollege...Diploma in Hospitality management in foodservice....and i tell my parents about this to my parents...but tht time my mum very support me but my father not support me at all....and scolded me very badly.....a big question again in my mind?????wht to do nw????tht time my mum ask me to call my brother and discuss about this with him....ask his opinion...but tht time my brother also ask me why not u take STPM...then i told him tht i found out tht local university not hav culinary art or foodservice course except UITM..and uitm only for malays....so if i study STPM also no point at the end i will dono wht to do...so my brother also agree with me and ask me to go ahead with my decision.....at the end my father also cool down and let me do wht i want...........so i also contact college and applying my course......after i did all the application and approve then only i realize tht i am the first person in my family going to study in private college.....all my cousin and brother study in local University.......
When i was enter college life i plan to work some part time job for my pocket money....i duwant my parents spend so much money on me....i know they work hard and earn money plus my family just a middle class family......i addition my brother and all my cousin studied in government University and they got loan and not ask money from parents....im the first person who study in private college...so i feel duwant ask money frm my parents also...i want indepandent as my brother and cousins....so i also start find a part time job and finally i got it....i worked at gold label cafe but just 3 or 4 days only....the first week in kampar i already start working...but cant cope with it....when i went back home after 3 day working there....i start to think its no point if i work and no ask money frm parent but didnt get a good result...i realize if i working i will just get a average result coz i will lack of time to study.....so i think and think and finally make a decision to stop from working and just focus on studies.....because i also promise my parents i will concentrate on my studeis and get a good result....plus my parents spend more money on me compare to my brother so i feel duwant to regret them....besides tht whn i plan to take this course my father also not really happy....he wants me to study engineering....so i need to study well and prove to him those who study this course also will success in future too.....will earn more than an engineer too.....
When i was enter college life i plan to work some part time job for my pocket money....i duwant my parents spend so much money on me....i know they work hard and earn money plus my family just a middle class family......i addition my brother and all my cousin studied in government University and they got loan and not ask money from parents....im the first person who study in private college...so i feel duwant ask money frm my parents also...i want indepandent as my brother and cousins....so i also start find a part time job and finally i got it....i worked at gold label cafe but just 3 or 4 days only....the first week in kampar i already start working...but cant cope with it....when i went back home after 3 day working there....i start to think its no point if i work and no ask money frm parent but didnt get a good result...i realize if i working i will just get a average result coz i will lack of time to study.....so i think and think and finally make a decision to stop from working and just focus on studies.....because i also promise my parents i will concentrate on my studeis and get a good result....plus my parents spend more money on me compare to my brother so i feel duwant to regret them....besides tht whn i plan to take this course my father also not really happy....he wants me to study engineering....so i need to study well and prove to him those who study this course also will success in future too.....will earn more than an engineer too.....
so i start study and motivate myself must do the best i can....during midterm exam..i didnt do well and felt tht its really not easy to get a good result in my final exam.....start to no confident....
but i still continue study as usual and went 4 final exam.....and after exam i just felt i will pass all the paper but not confident will get good result.....
after few week...result released....i got the best result among my coursemate...wow really thank God....coz i really never imagine i will got a good result as tht....tht time i was really happy and felt tht i done my promise to my family...my parents also very happy....i still remember tht time my brother send me a msg and saids tht continue study hard as nw.....n make appa and amma proud of u.....then only i realize actually i also able to study well just lazy and no confident.....and giv myself a target at least must get diploma with distriction...thts mean CGPA 3.75
after tht whn i was in sem two....i was not focus on studies....feel tht very easy only....
cincai cincai study also i got 4 A in sem one ......so start to lazy and always spend time 4 useless thing.....at the end...sem two result sucks....only 2 A....and my CGPA decease very much...frm 3.7 decrease till 3.1 something....wow...
tht time i really regret very very much.....but no point...all this happen is becoz of me....so blame myself.....then whn i was in sem 3.....i really put my maximum effort and evrytime study hard and do my best and pray to God hope i can get the best result.....i duwant do like last sem.....i want recover back my CGPA......and finally i got straight A tht sem but my CGPA...not increase much..just rose to 3.4 something...but i not really care bout tht...tht time and felt can recover back in next coming sems.....wow tht time really happy and joy...really really thank God.....whn i call back my family to inform them my result...i still remember whn i talking to them my tear also drop down.....very touching and happy and joy in my heart..............
then semester 4.....i keep on burning fire on my aim....study well and do my best.....but i didnt get the result tht i wanted......i aim to get 4 A but just got 3 A and my CGPA just 3.5 something.....its really make me upset and spoiled all my planning coz i plan to get CGPA3.6 something...if not i cant get DIPLOMA WITH DISTRICTION
then i count if the following 2 more sem if i got all A also cant get diploma with distriction....just can get merit...coz my CGPA the maximum only will get 3.72...but i want 3.75...omg...just 0.03...shitttttttttttttttttttttttttt
i really really really regret why i not study well in my sem two....but no point d.....its tooooooo late.....
but i just felt dont think so much about the past and felt just do my best 4 my studies....
then 5th sem is my industrial training....this industrial training really make a great changes in my life
bfore i went to industrial training.....i really dont like F&B department coz whn i did my practical in college restaurant , i felt its really boring and not challenging.....but whn i did my industrial training in F&B department....wooooowwwwwwwww
i enjoy the maximum.....its really make me think out of shell...i really felt its interesting and challenging coz everyday meet different guest and frm different background....and start to interet in f&b line......in college i never felt tht coz our guest in college most of the time is our frenzzzzzz........
i also very happy and felt tht i really success in this industrial training....got more than wht i hav expected....good comments frm guest....staff...managers....award......job offer....cooperate training offer....and so many kind of supporting and encouragement...really thank god...all the proudness to GOD alone....i believe its all becoz of his blessing......
besides tht, bfore i went training i plan to just study until diploma then work for few year and continue my degree.....but during training time all my managers and those educated profile ppl advice me to continue my studies till degree....they said u will regret if not continue nw....then i aslo felt tht i may regret....why not just continue my degree without working first....it will be more easier....then i told my mum and ask her opinion....wow...i never think tht she will encourage me and she straight way ask me to continue if u want.....coz i promise her last time...after i finished my diploma i willnot
depands on them anymore....i will work and continue my studies with my own money.......but nw i want depand on them again....but thank God my family finance also better nw....effort to let me continue study.......
at the same time whn i was in Penang i also found a greatest thing tht i was searching 4 few years.....really thank my god sister DING DING who are the reason of im found Him earlier in
my life...if not i may found Him late.....GOD...this is wht i searching 4 few years....and i really happy with having U my God in my life...i felt my life more confident and joyful with ur Love and Power.....and i hav a guide in my life.....i just felt tht i reborn again in this world.....
at the end...i really no heart to leave Penang....after my training end....but hav to....
everything done.......nw....my planning is my DEGREE......so tht i want continue my advance diploma first.....but i need at least 5 frens study with me then only college will open a class.....if not i may need to join Hotel management course......Keep on Praying nw....hope my frens will continue advance diploma.....and will be the first batch of Foodservice student proceed to advance level......wish to make tht History........
i just felt tht my life really really become very meaningful and happy and more confident after i found Him.....bfore i found my god...i just hope to become a executive chef is more than enough...but NW....i want to be the most popular Chef in the world....CHEF OF THE WORLD....i believe my dream will come true.....dream is possible......i believe on my worship and power of God will bless my dream......hohoho.................
KALIDEVAN will keep on burning fire on his Future life with put the first priority to God......Kalidevan will do the best.....GOD will do the rest.........................................................
in 15 years.......CHEF OF THE WORLD KALIDEVAN>>>>>>>
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